February 2012
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hey, mr. tambourine man..
sometimes, you just have to accept life for what it is. it’s going to be really hard, and at times, you’re probably going to want to throw a brick at the face of anyone that’s ever hurt you. there’s going to be times you want to jump off a cliff, & sometimes you might even wish you could take a few people with you. you might even feel sometimes, that the absolute worst...
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you were the last good thing about this part of...
dear you,
i’ve been thinking about us quite a bit recently, and i suddenly realized how much i miss you. i mean, not the kind of missing someone where all you do is cry and tell people how miserable you are and eat Ben & Jerry’s all night…but the nostalgic kind of missing. it’s the tightness in my chest and the honeysuckle memories clamoring around inside my brain....
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ever feel like you were just born to be unhappy? like no matter how good your life is, you’re happiness will forever be nonexistent? like you’ve just been drenched in this everlasting state of unluckiness? i do. everyday.
sometimes i wonder if i’ll ever even do anything with my life, or if i’ll just stay the way i am. disgustingly fat, lonely, boring, unwanted, and forever...
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no more Jack's Mannequin?
i have never felt more heartbreak in my whole life. this is the band - the man…that completely turned my life whole entire around. i got a fucking tattoo for this band. Andrew’s words and the joy that he spreads to the world are what keep me going. they’re what made me stop cutting myself. Jack’s Mannequin literally gets me through every goddamn second of every fucking day...
January 2012
7 posts
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kewl jahmz.
Suspension - LIGHTS
I Like It Like That (Feat. New Boyz) - Hot Chelle Rae
Kickstarts - Example
Titanium (Feat. Sia) - David Guetta
Tell Me A Lie - One Direction
The Man That Can’t Be Moved - The Script
Hangover - Hey Monday
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no fancy words. no over-thinking. this is it.
honestly, i’m not going to try and sound all poetic in this post. i’m not going to overuse adjectives or try and sound like a thesaurus. i don’t give a fuck anymore.
i hate school & i don’t care about my grades. i’m sorry, but i just don’t. i can’t go on pretending like my education is going somewhere, because i know that it isn’t. i’m not...
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pretty eyes, ugly lies, such a lethal pair. sweetest rye, these exit signs, leading me nowhere. blinded by love, he said, “don’t give up… i’ll change, darling i swear.” and i’ve had enough, done it all, so i thought… but leave him, i do not dare.
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dearest Niall Horan...
you are my favorite member of One Direction, and it breaks my heart that people don’t give you more credit. you’re perfect in every way and the day i meet you will be the best day of my life.
that is all.
xx
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black & white brilliance.
noun /pēˈanō/
A large keyboard musical instrument with a wooden case enclosing a soundboard and metal strings, which are struck by hammers when the keys are depressed. The strings’ vibration is stopped by dampers when the keys are released, and it can be regulated for length and volume by two or three pedals.
for almost 13 years now, you’ve kept me atop the tallest mountain,...
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“We live in this culture where everything is supposed to be so hip and so cool,...”
– Andrew McMahon
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everyday
she stares out the window
and into the world
everyday
she cries her tears
and builds her walls
everyday
she digs her valleys
into her skin
and watches as the red river
runs down her palms and
like a waterfall
it doesn’t end
everyday
she fails to realize
that while she dreamt
of a free, bright world
she’d created her own
everyday
she creates her own...
December 2011
15 posts
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stuck in her daydream, been this way since...
so today, i embarked on an all-too farmliar road trip, & as my darling Ed Sheeran serenaded me with sweet honey-lullabies, i couldn’t help but get lost in a sea of thought. the car windows were foggy, but my mind was even foggier; & whatever’s been bothering me recently, only became much stronger & more cunning. whatever he is, he’s been amplifying himself from my...
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ed sheeran & a new smile.
this Christmas has been a wonderful one, if i do say so myself. filled with snowy cheer and bustling laughter and the sweetest nostalgia…i’ve never felt so at ease. i think it may be the fact that tomorrow, i hop on a train, then a plane, then a bus back to where it all began. tomorrow i head home to Nova Scotia, the place where things make sense.
i think the loveliest part of the...
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it's just a place i'm looking for.
in a busy hallway, littered with snowy windowsills and Christmas cheer, i drag my feet into the dim music room. this place is a chamber full of memories. it smells of dusty instruments, new sheet music and bittersweet nostalgia, and i find that i feel quite at home here. as i slip into a shadowy practice room, the sight of them together throws sharpened daggers through my heart. i can feel them...
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you can breathe, but the air is running out.
with nothing left to say, this is for you. i guess i’ll just never know the places we could have gone together. i guess this is the end.
“MFEO: Parts One & Two” - Jack’s Mannequin
“Poison & Wine” - The Civil Wars
”Welcome To Wherever You Are” - Ten Second Epic
“The Writer” - Ellie Goulding
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“Sometimes I wonder if God can ever forgive us for what we’ve done to each...”
– Leonardo DiCaprio as Danny Archer in Blood Diamond
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how fickle my heart & how woozy my eyes.
tonight, being the radical piece of magnificence that it was, seems to have recovered a little something inside this scattered brain of mine. something that i thought i’d lost. something i thought i’d never find ever again.
hope.
see, these past years have made me a really incredulous, completely pessimistic kind of girl. my eyes lost their sparkle & my voice lost it’s...
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Conclusion to insanity.
I’m going to talk about books, and in particular, one I’ve just finished reading. If you don’t appreciate literature, please proceed elsewhere. However, if you’re a bookworm like myself…continue. You may just be enlightened.
So as many of you know, reading is one of my utmost obsessions in every sense of the word, (aside from music, that is). I’ve talked about...
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Brett’s Song | Mallory Hynes
* i almost...
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“When you have nobody you can make a cup of tea for, when nobody needs you,...”
– Audrey Hepburn
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I never thought I would start this again.
But I did.
I cut again.
Because nobody gives a fuck about me.
Not even my own family.
There’s no point in even living anymore, really.
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Masks
She had blue skin, And so did he. He kept it hid And so did she. They searched for blue Their whole life through, Then passed right by - And never knew.
- Shel Silverstein
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“She gave me a pen. I gave her my heart and she gave me a pen.”
– John Cusack as Lloyd Dobler in Say Anything
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Hardcore for romantics. I will speak this poetry...
I know that someday you’ll be sleeping, darling Likely dreaming off the pain I hope you hear me in the streetlights humming Softly breathing out your name I know that even with the seams stitched tightly Darling, scars will remain I say we scrape them from each other, darling And let them wash off in the rain And when they run into the river, oh Let the water not complain And even with the...
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You don't need me like I need you.
He wants her.
She wants him.
And once again, I’m left behind.
I just don’t understand what’s wrong with me. I’ve been lucky enough to have his tragically beautiful eyes in my life for three years, and he’s never seen me the way I see him. She’s known him for a week and already she’s asked him out on a date. He’s said yes too. And yet again,...
November 2011
14 posts
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It's funny.
It’s funny how prolific the world is portrayed as, isn’t it. It’s funny how we’re taught to see beauty where there is none. It’s funny how you can know someone for such a prolonged period of time. Seventeen years, to be exact. Seventeen lonely years.
Except it’s not funny, because you don’t really know them.
If I’m being honest, I don’t...
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I began.
To view the world at large
through borrowed eyes,
eyes more like those
I wanted to own.
Hopeful.
I began
to see that it was more than
okay - it was, in some circles,
expected - to question my
little piece of the planet.
Empowered.
I began
to understand that I could
stretch if I wanted to, explore
if I dared, escape
if I just put one foot
in front of the other.
Enlightened.
...
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What is simple in the evening by the morning never...
I think I’ve always been sort of a simple girl. Always preferred coffee over tea, books over TV and music over, well, everything. I’ve never gotten into drugs or alcohol or anything of that such, and frankly, I’ve always thought that being alone was plenty fulfilling. I just enjoy being alone, and I never seem to get lonely, which is lovely, I suppose.
But what happens when the...
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I woke up in a car.
I don’t even know how the fuck to start this post. All I know is that tonight was one of the worst nights in a very very long time. And I’m not even going to tell you what happened. Instead, please allow me to make a list of the things that I know are true right now.
I’m invisible. I always have been, and always will be, and nothing I or anyone else says or does will ever change...
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Music I dig.
So, as many of you already know, I tend to spend every last buck I have on music. Whether it be vinyls, CD’s, tapes, whatever - I’m addicted to buying new music. I just love ripping the plastic off and feeling the resistance of the case as I open it for the very first time. I love staring at the album art, while trying to interpret the angle the artist chose, and the reason behind that...
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To The Icy Tides | Instrumental (Mallory Hynes)
...
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How to make the perfect mix tape.
The following post is a step-by-step list of instructions on how to make a mix tape. There are really no rules to this process, but these are some guidelines on how to make an efficient one that you’ll really love and that will last a long time. * Makes approx. 1 mix tape * Estimated cooking time - your entire Friday or Saturday night/the duration of the entire first season of Degrassi: The...
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“The whole world, myself included, seem to have one thing in common; we’re...”
– Andrew McMahon
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Underneath a paper moon.
Here is a list of music that makes me feel like I am at the very top of the whole universe. Whether they’re old or new…the feeling never changes.
Welcome To The Black Parade - My Chemical Romance
February Air - LIGHTS
Konstantine - Something Corporate
Helena - My Chemical Romance
Dear Maria, Count Me In - All Time Low
Up & Up - Relient K
Born For This - Paramore
Welcome To...
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I'm a walking travesty.
I feel like I’m just sitting here waiting for something to happen with the knowledge that nothing will. I keep pretending, and I don’t know how to stop. Every day’s just a blur. School, sleep, school, sleep, repeat. No one understands me, and no matter how hard I try, I just can’t get out of this goddamn grave I dug for myself. I don’t know how. I just don’t. No...
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This peppermint winter is so sugar sweet.
There’s something so wonderfully comforting about winter, but I can never quite put my finger on it. I can’t tell if it’s the taste of sweet eggnog lattes, the comfy sweaters I drown myself in, or the many books that consume me. It might also be the pretty lights littering the town, or maybe it’s the anticipation of the first snowfall of the winter. That perfect first...
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Goals for the New Year.
Get a job.
Get my license.
Lose 40 pounds.
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Something.
I don’t know what to do anymore.
Let me just be blunt about my problem. My best friend has anorexia/bulimia, and I don’t know what to do. I love her so much, she’s my sister…and I get scared everyday that I’ll wake up and get a call saying that she isn’t here anymore. Seriously, I cry all the time because I’m so worried about her. I mean she’s...
October 2011
14 posts
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I'm shouting your name all over town.
I don’t know what’s going on.
Your plaid shirt, and those shoes you wore today. Ah, darling, you make me go crazy, you really do. Let me just admit it…let me just admit that I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore. I can’t decide if I love you or if I never want to see you again. Honestly, I think it’s a combination of both. I love you so much that I...
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Reality is lovely place, but I wouldn't wanna live...
Songs I currently dig:
Heavy Rope - LIGHTS
Restless Dream - Jack’s Mannequin
The Real World - Owl City
About A Girl - The Academy Is…
Nothing - The Script
A Lack Of Color - Death Cab For Cutie
Atlantic - The Midway State
The Heart Of Life - John Mayer
Deer In The Headlights - Owl City
Albums I currently dig:
Siberia // LIGHTS
People & Things // Jack’s Mannequin
...
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The end.
Her hands shake. Her eyes burn. A thin line of crimson tickles her once pearly skin. Her breath is increasingly weak, yet each one exhausts her. Her dreams lay in defeat, but still seem slightly palpable. Her tears run into the river they created for her. A grave they dug for her. An underworld they conjured with their bare hands. There is no sound…none at all. Only clicking machines. Only...
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I need you so much closer.
The Atlantic was born today and I’ll tell you how the clouds above opened up and let it out. I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere, when the water filled every hole. And thousands upon thousands made an ocean, making islands where no island should go. Those people were overjoyed; they took to their boats. I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat. The rhythm of my...
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Things that rock. (In no particular order.)
Jack’s Mannequin
Family
Airport hassle
Cake
Cozy beds
Wonder Woman
Christmas
New albums
Fresh coffee
Friday nights
Cats
Cory Monteith
New guitar strings
Full iPod battery
Clean glasses
Glee
McDonalds
My Chemical Romance
John Mayer
The Joker
Band posters
Harry Potter
Chocolate of any kind
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Words don't mean a thing.
Instrumentals. Tracks that don’t need to rely on a few carefully planned sentences to get the message across. Tracks that can both wake you up and put you to sleep. Tracks that define day and night. Tracks that focus primarily on personal feelings and perspective.
It’s no secret that some of our world’s most beautiful tracks are wordless works of art. But - how can something SO...
Here's to such an old invention.
Here’s some songs that I love. I thought you might think they’re awesome too.
Siberia - LIGHTS
Restless Dream - Jack’s Mannequin
A Lack Of Color - Death Cab For Cutie
Miss You - Foster The People
Hope For The Hopeless - A Fine Frenzy
Seaside - The Kooks
Goodnight Moon - Go Radio
Lua - Bright Eyes
Heavy Rope - LIGHTS
Hear You Me - Jimmy Eat World
Cameras - Matt &...
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Things that piss me off.
Here’s a few things that stark me mad.
Seagulls - I am trying to eat my damn sandwich. NO, you CAN’T have a bite, now fuck OFF. Stop hovering all up in my motherfucking business.
GIF makers - Why are you charging me $10.00 a month to make a damn picture move?!?!?! That shit is stupid.
Grade 9’s - Stop acting like you’re top shit because you’re in high school now. I...
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Welp.
You know you’re a humungous LIGHTS fan when you literally start crying because you’re not caller #7 on 107.5KOOLFM - a.k.a - you didn’t win tickets to see LIGHTS and meet her before the show in Barrie.